Depression

The post by Kris that talks about the "beautiful bod". got me to thinking about my body. Not in a good way. One I have had three breast biopsies within a short time. Each breast is taking a turn. It is the right breast turn next. They want me to :think:( about bilateral breast mastectomies to go with the total abdominal hysterectomy. It felt like I was at a restraurant and they asked me "Would you like pepper on that salad."

I am starting to feel hollowed out.

To keep myself from depression....I need to think of myself in a different way. Where then is myself located. I would like to think my heart. But even here I am having heart failure. (physical)

My self is located in my Spirit. It is that part of me that has butterfly wings. My body won't be the same. Canser scars are ugly, so I thought I would tattoo the one I will get on my belly. I was thinking of a intertwining weeping fig. Or a huge rubber tree plant. but how would butterflies looks. Since I love to do art and draw. I may just design one special non-depressing tattoo to celebrate this rite of passage.